September Goals and Monthly Updates

1. August Lull - catfish, security threats 
2. September Plans
3. B-Day Videos, 6 edited, drop box, etc
4. New Monitor Goal
5. Dukes! Dukes! Dukes?

Happy Hump Day! And Happy end of August!

Sorry for the lull the last few weeks, I was just getting things in order and then had a bit of a security threat in mid August. I was notified by a hand full of people that someone has been stealing my photos and using them on tinder. I still haven't been able to get this person removed but my initial fear was that it was a personal and malicious attack because a friend who lives near me was matched with this catfish. I thought, oh shit, who ever is doing this is near by and maybe knows me. But later we found out that it's using some sort of bot and will show up on your tinder pretty much anywhere. But obvs with a human moderator, if you remember me chasing them for a few days every time they changed their instagram name lol.

Top #20 - Competition

My birthday is here, and once again we will be competing for a spot in the top #20 Miss MFC. I want to remind everyone that while this is a fun and friendly competition, it is still competitive. I would ask my members to keep a positive attitude and adhere closely to the "if you don't have anything nice to say, stfu" rule.

I don't want to down play the competitive aspect of all this. It's there, we can't deny it. But we can choose to conduct ourselves in a mature way and we can choose to gain a positive perspective from it.

Thank You! (part 2)

So I found Eva Lee. There is a sorta funny part of that part of my story that I forgot to point out. I said I was a guest. After sitting in her room, overwhelmed by the happiness that is Eva, for about twenty minutes, I worked up the nerve to say hello.

I typed "hello" as lame guests do and this error message popped up that I quickly ignored. I waited a few minutes and no one responded so I typed something along the lines of "I really like your hair" like lame guests do. Again, ignore error, again, nothing. I can't really explain the nervousness at this point. I'm sure many have experienced it on their first day on MFC. As a guest. Who everyone is ignoring.

So I thought maybe they didn't see my message cos it was too short. Or maybe they hated me... either way, I was practically sweating. I thought, she seems nice, maybe she wants to help a sister out and finally typed something like "Hey, you look really great. I'm a model too, what kind of camera do you use?"

This time I read the error message. "Guests have been temporarily muted by the model. Please sign up for a free account, asshole." My palms started sweating and getting sore. I thought maybe she had seen my message and had chosen to ignore it. You cannot NOT communicate, right? So I signed up for the free basic account as PrincessZoe2 and again tried to ask the pretty girl with red hair about her camera. This time all I got was "Basics have been temporarily muted... give us 20 bucks or fuck off."

So this irritated me and I gave up.

Thank You!

I know it is common for people to reflect on what they are happy about around the holidays and they go all ooy gooy about this and that... but at risk of being totally cliche, I just want to say Thank You!

Last November I decided to be a cam model.

I wasn't desperate for money. I wasn't in need of attention. I was curious. I'm an explorer and I like asking questions. It started out sort of like a research project and a test of my sexuality. I like to think of myself as a fairly open minded person and at the time, I was sort of wondering about my definitions of sexuality. I knew I was offended by porn but I didn't really know why. Was it because society taught me as a woman to find male sexuality vile and dirty? Or was it simply a preference, a choice I had made on my own, social bias aside?

That adventure is a whole different post but let's stick to the curiosity theme here. I was listening to Howard Stern's talk radio show and he was interviewing a girl who fucked herself in front of a webcam for money.

Up to this point, I had never heard of such a thing. So, I'm not big into porn. But I am into figuring things out. And to be honest, the exhibitionist aspect gets me excited. (Getting gang fucked by strong men with competition winning sized penises DOES NOT) This particular interviewee on Howard's show had her experience in porn and so I assumed this was some thing porn stars did on the side and didn't really think it was something "normal" girls did. And I didn't think too much about it for a while.